Laying against the tombstone holding on I begin to see the faces of the dying and dead Insane torment what have I done what have I become? Rain is pouring I stand to walk then I stop I see the cross and I climb to the top I see the graves of victims who some may have as well been demons In their own time, I realize now: “I am no better than most of them” When will this be all over?Salt on my open wounds, I bow my head in shame haunted by the inner devils in me Jumping down I see some people confront their demons and others become thembut not for very long no matter how hard I try I just can’t seem to fit in I just don’t belong many have cursed me damned me to hell For all eternity I am lost wondering the nightmare named life Day and night I remain cold, warmth has left me, Love has been stolen, my rage turned to poison. At the bottom of the sewer is where I stay now A place now that I call home Until, I can clear my head. I’ve had better days My bride to be under the Utah snow Taught me to catch snowflakes with my tongue And build a snow man then a family of snow men The little things I took for granted then Matter most to me now, I’d sell my soul to revive those memories And the nights of passionate love Since she has been away I have stayed away I see signs and she appears, as I walk toward her she disappears Like a premonition… Demons from the past, ghost memories, inside I am dying But my revenge, my promise must be kept! The lives I have saved those who have died under my blade in my hands my bride to be, showed me I shed more blood then tears and love combined! I sacrificed what many search for and very few find… As I leave the cemetery with no faith no hope I remember the wise words of a family member “One cannot escape the shadow; however the shadow will never leave you. And having the courage to face the light of day is true strength. So do so with the shadow by your side.” My eyes open the torment is passed, Gripping my sword I jump over the gate, and walk into the mist of night,
THREE DAYS BEFORE OUR ANINVERSARY WOKE UP EARLY FOR A HEAD START TO BUY CHRISTMAS GIFTS ON THE BUS NOW WE ARE HEADED HOME LET’S STOP BY THE LIBRARY SO I CAN MAKE MY OWN CHRISTMAS CARDS (SHE SAYS) ANYTHING FOR THIS LOVE OF MINE, INSIDE WE LEAVE OUR I.D.S AT THE COUNTER LAUGHING AND RUNNING TO THE COMPUTERS LIKE TWO CHILDREN WE SIT AND SMILE FROM A FEW FEET AWAY SHE SITS BEHIND ME E-MAILING ME SILLY MESSAGES THAT MAKE ME SMILE… AFTER TEN MINUTES OF WRITING SHE SAYS “IT’S TIME TO START THE CARDS”. TWENTY MINUTES LATER I LOOK BEHIND AND NOTICE HER SMILE THEN AFTER AWHILE I LOOK AGAIN BUT DON’T SEE HER I RUN TO THE FRONT COUNTER AND ASK WHERE SHED SEEN MY BRIDE TO BE,“YOU DIDN’T COME IN HERE WITH ANYONE” (SHE REPLIED) I ASKED FOR THE I.D.S BACK RETURNING ONLY ONE I KNEW SOMETHING WAS VERY WRONG I STEP OUTSTIDE I FEEL THE COLD AND THE LONELINESS, I RUN TO THE NEAREST PERSON ASSUMING THEY HAVE BEEN THEIR AWHILE AND ASK IF THEY HAVE SEEN THE WOMAN IN THE PICTURE I HELD IN MY HAND IF SO PLEASE TELL ME SHE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME AND NOW SHE IS GONE… LADY SHRUGS AND SAYS SHE DOESN’T KNOW AWHOLE DAY OF SEARCHING FROM 12:30 IT IS NOW 5:00 DAYLIGHT IS GOING SO FAST AND I AM WORRIED I AM SCARED RUNNING THROUGH THE STREETS YELLING HER NAME ASKING DIFFERENT PEOPLE ABOUT THE WOMAN IN THE PHOTO AND SEVERAL HAVE GIVEN ME AN ODD LOOK FINALLY I STOP INFRONT OF A POLICE DEPARTMENT AND TRY TO FILE A MISSING PERSONS REPORTTHEN THEY ACCUSE ME OF KIDNAPPING AND MURDER LAUGHING THEY SAY NOTHING THEY CAN DO BUT PATROL, ALL REST OF THE NIGHT I WONDER AND SEE A MAN WITH A BEANIE AND A SWEAT SUIT APPROACH NEAR BY THE LIBRARY WHERE IT ALL STARTED I SHOW HIM THE PICTURE HIS EYES OPEN WIDE AFTER A SECOND HE SAYS NO, I RUN HOME AND PUT ON ARMOR COLLECT MY KNIVES I SEE THE POLICE PATROLING BACK ACROSS FROM THE LIBRARY ABOVE THE STORE TOP I SEE THE MAN DOWN BELOW I JUMP DOWN AS HE WALKS OUT FROM BEHIND THE DUMPSTER HE LOOKS AT ME PULLS HIS GUN TO MY EYE PULLS THE TRIGGER AND IT JAMMED! IN A BLINK OF AN EYE I OPEN THEN CLOSE MY HANDS BREAKING HIS ELBOW AND WRIST TURNING HIS ARM AROUND TO HIS FACE AS HE HAD BEEN SQUEEZING THE TRIGGER GUN LOUDLY GOES OFF SHOOTING HIM IN THE CHEEK I BACK UP PULL OUT MY KNIVES AND STICK THEM IN HIS KNEE CAPS AS HE YELLS FOR HELP AND WHISLTESS FOR NEARBY FRIENDS I HERD A FAINT “HELP, HELP ME” HE AND I MAKE CONTACT AND ANOTHER MAN COMES OUT FROM BEHIND THE DUMPSTER PULLING UP HIS PANTS HE SEES ME AND HIS FRIEND BROKEN AND BLLEDING BELOW MY FEET I WALK TOWARD HIM AND ASK WHO IS BEHIND THERE? HE REPLIES NOONE THIS TIME THE FAINT VOICE TURNED INTO A YELL AND I RUSH TO SEE AND A GIRL LAYS PARTIALLY NAKED AND BLOODY I TAKE OFF MY COAT AND COVER HER TELLING HER IT’S OK NOW, I TURN AND NOW I SEE RED AND SMELL BLOOD I TURN AND PUNCH HIM BREAKING EVERY BONE IN HIS FACE SO HE FEELS THE FEAR AND BEGS ME TO STOP I GRIN AND SAY “DEMON RETURN TO HELL” WRAPPING MY ARMS AROUND HIS NECK MY HAND UNDER HIS CHIN SLOWLY BREAKING AND SNAPPING HIS NECKTHE POPPING I HEAR BETWEEN HIS GIRLISH SCREAMS…”ANOTHER MONSTER TO HIS GRAVE AND ANOTHER LIFE SAVED”. AS I TURN THE OTHER MAN BLED OUT TONGUE HANGING ON THE SIDE OF HIS SHOT CHEEK I NOW HOLD TWO FACES IN MY MIND THE GIRL GETS UP AND LAUGHS MADLY AND CURSES PUNCHES AND KICKS THEM SAYING WHT I DID IS NOT ENOUGHI SHOWED HERTHE PICTTURE OF MY WIFE TO BE SHE SMIRKS AND CRIES THEN SAYS SHE SAW HER WALK OUT THE LIBRARY GOT BEAT UP BY SIX MEN AND DORP TO THE FLLOR AFTER FIGHTING BACK AND SHE DIDN’T GET UP INTIL THEY PUT HER IN THE VAN. I WALK HER HOME THEN I WALK AWAY INTO THE BRIGHT MORNING LIGHT TIRED ENRAGED SAD SCARED AND KNOWING WHAT HAS HAPPENED…I GO BACK TO THE POLICE STATION AND NOTHING BACK TO THE LIBRARY AND NOTHING THEN I REMEMBER SHE ONCE SAID SOMETIMES YOU GOTTA GO BACK TO WHERE IT ALL STARTED SO I RAN TO WHERE WE FIRST MET AND THERE SHE WAS, SHE CHANGED NO DESIRE IN HER EYES NO SMILE NO EMOTION JUST NUMB I RAN TO HER AND SHE JUMPED BACK SHE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID WHERE WERE YOU? YOU CAN SAVE OTHERS BUT YOU DIDN’T SAVE ME WHO AM YOUR BRIDE TO BE… MADNESS FORMED I FELT A SNAP IN MY HEAD WE WALKED AS SHE TOLD ME WHAT HAPPENED , THEN I SWORE TO FIND THEM FIGHT THEM AND MAKE THEM PAY I SWORE A BLOODY REVENGE IT IS NOW DEC.20,2005 12:40 IN THE AFTERNOON… WE ARRIVE HOME AND SHE TELLS ME SHE IS LEAVING ME AFTER SHE GETS OUT OF THE HOSPITAL, I CRY FOR THE LAST AND FINAL TIME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.. NIGHTTIME IS HERE I RUN TO WHERE SHE WAS TAKEN FROM ME AND THE BLUE VAN DRIVS BY A GIRL HONKING IN A STRANGE TONE I HEARD ONLY BY KNOCKING ON DOORS BEFORE, AND IT WAS THE SAME VAN WITH THE HONK SHE DESCRIBED I RAN UP TO THE VAN THEY DRIVE ON AND HAULT AT A RED LIGHT . A PATROL CAR WAS PARKED ACROSS I OPEND THE VAN DOOR TWISITING HIS HEAD AROUND AS I PULL HIM OUT THEN ANOTHER CAME FROM MY SIDE CRACKING MY RIB WITH A PIPE I GRAB HIS ARM BROKE IN TWO PLACES AND PUSHED HIS EYES INSIDE HIS SOCKETS, I HEARD FROM A FAR ” FREEZE DON’T YOU FUCKING MOVE! DROP YOUR WEAPONS”. SO I LAY ON THE GROUNDAND TWO MORE COME OUT I GOT UP AND RAN TO THEM WITH THE PIPE AND HIT THEM UTIL I FELT THEIR SCULLS CRACKSOUNDING LIKE A COCONUT OPEN… I TOLD THE OFFICER ARREST ME BUT THESE MEN KIDNAPPED AND RAPED MY BRIDE TO BE THERE ARE TWO MORE I NEED TO FIND! OFFICER CALLS FOR AND AMBULENCE AND TELLS ME TO RUN AND SAYS WE CAN MAKE A DEAL HE GIVES ME A TIME AND PLACE TO MEET HIM IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MONTH, I RUN BACK HOME SWEATY HOT ADRENALIN PUMPING I TELL MY BRIDE TO BE THE GOOD NEWS! ONLY TO FIND AN EMPTY ROOM WITH A LETTER ON MY BED
DEAR DAVID:
BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS I WOULD BE GONE FAR AWAY FROM YOU AND THIS HORRIBLE PLACE I SHOULDN’T BE SCARED TO GO OUTSIDE I CAN’T EVEN CLOSE MY EYES FOR I AM AFRAID OF THE DARK, NOW I SEE JUSTICE IS BLIND AND JUSTICE GOES UNDONE ...NO MATTER HOW MANY DEMONS YOU SLAY THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A DEVIL IN THIS WORLD AND THAT DEVIL IS YOU…THE MAN I LOVED DIED WITH ME LASTNIGHT YOU HAVE BECOME SOMETHING MORE AND BECAUSE OF THAT I CAN LOVE YOU NO MORE I AM SORRY GOODBYE...
CRUSHING THE LETTER AND MY HEART BROKEN I ACCEPT WHAT SHE HAS SAID I AM THE DEVIL KNOWN BY ANOTHER NAME; I AM KING ACE THEE INSANE ALL UNDERGROUND CRIMINALS WILL KNOW AND FEAR MY NAME I SWEAR IT!
Wondering the alley ways it’s the witching hour, Moon is rising clouds are moving I know troubles on the way Only people up to no good are out this late at night, in this part of town. Hidden in the shadow I see as the civilians walk by and the obvious criminals trying to blend in like wolves dressing as sheep, A girl catches my eyes…stands at 5, 3 brown hair blue eyes blue jeans and a red shirt with black converse, she is hiding behind the wall peeking her head out as if noticing she has been followed or perhaps maybe playing a game like few other who sneak out for some midnight fun, A few feet away I control my breathing so she won’t notice me. I hear a man walking, dragging his feet and as if he is crushing paper Rolling to the other wall, she hears then turns but didn’t see me She quivers in fear as she sees him and crawls behind the dumpster He is now ranting in a drunken state of mind as he clumsily stumbles in the alley, The liquor on his breath and the cigarette smoke on his clothes is very strong must have been in a bar perhaps a topless nightclub that would explain him chasing this girl he might of spotted her on his way out walking on the sidewalk, I must focus he is near her I throw a small projectile to distract him leading him away but he didn’t even notice “I know your around heeereee I can smell your perfume” (He says)…Ilook to him then to her now she’s shaking I step out but she runs out in front of him and straight through his legs he grabs her by the ankle and drags her where she was behind the dumpsterI moved up behind him as she screams “help! Someone please help me” now I grin and unleash my rage the claws on my hands grip his face and rip the flesh I have no mercy for pedophiles I turn him around as he is screaming and poorly trying to defend himself I see the mess I made decided it wasn’t enough so I took out his eyes and ripped out his tongue so all will see the evil outside that has been kept a secret inside now all will know Him for the demon he is “another monster in shame, another life saved” And a grin for a job well done one more face of sin tattooed in my brain close my eyes for a moment of peace to clear my head Opened now I am home… Oh sweet bride to be how I love you, come fall into my arms and let’s go to sleep. “Was it a good night?” (She asks) Tonight justice is not the only one who is blind, my love Tomorrow morning the world will open its eyes and see the secret I have unveiled. Let’s sleep safe and sound.
Waking up to a violent storm, I approach the window and see the shadows swaying. I hear the whispering in the wind deep in my bones I can feel a darkness starting to brew. I turn toward the love of my life that has always been at my side. Another monster to his grave and another life I will save… Fog rises and falls spreading around the streets blinding, making it hard to see your own hand in front of you, but makes me a nightmare to demons like those out tonight. Locking up the house keeping my heart safe and secure I turn to look one more time. A kiss between her eyes one last hug just in case I don’t return home… I step out into the world of pain I can feel the fear and hear the mad laughter of criminals. So I grin and run toward where my blade guides me on tonight! Moving through the thick fog I sense rage and it’s pulling me right to it. I scale the wall jump to the tree up to where it’s dark and hard to see me. Quietly I move closer and see a girl surrounded by five men as I climb lower I can now see the expression of fear and the look on theirs is of hate and lust. Right next to them holding my breath and gripping my sword of justice. I unsheathe it slowly and carefully in shadow steps. I place my Hand over his mouth I slide my blade across his throat inserting my fingers inside ripping out a souvenir…I quickly throw my knives to another as I run to impale my blade into the back of the third man separating his spine , Two men left and they have been too busy wrestling with her to notice the smell of death. And to gone to sense the terror! Clock is ticking darkness is starting to fade into light I run up to them, and hearing my footsteps they charge at me. So I yell to catch them off balance with a war cry! I twist their hate into the same fear the victim is cloaked in, with my final phrase “DEMONS RETURN TO HELL”! I draw my sword and with all my might and rage I sever one head. Breaking my blade! Stuck halfway into the neck of the last of the five. The worst one the instigator so he deserves to die a slow painful death so I give him the other half of the sword ,I help the girl up and walked her home, along the way I’m collecting my weapons and now I see their faces in my mindI grin for the satisfaction the job well done. Outside the gate to my home, I walk on the steps, my bride to be waiting with open arms. And tears in her eyes and a grin like mine … “Justice may be blind, but justice does not go undone”
I am ninja...
My way is ninjutsu..
My magic is training...
my body is control...
my strength is adaptability...
My weapons are everything that exists...
