Shokage

Kage

Torment

Chapter 4:

Laying against the tombstone holding on
I begin to see the faces of the dying and dead
Insane torment what have I done what have I become?
Rain is pouring I stand to walk then I stop
I see the cross and I climb to the top
I see the graves of victims who some may have as well been demons
In their own time,
I realize now: “I am no better than most of them”
When will this be all over? Salt on my open wounds,
I bow my head in shame haunted by the inner devils in me
Jumping down I see some people confront their demons and others become them but not for very long no matter how hard I try I just can’t seem to fit in I just don’t belong many have cursed me damned me to hell
For all eternity I am lost wondering the nightmare named life
Day and night I remain cold, warmth has left me, Love has been stolen, my rage turned to poison.
At the bottom of the sewer is where I stay now
A place now that I call home
Until, I can clear my head.
I’ve had better days
My bride to be under the Utah snow
Taught me to catch snowflakes with my tongue
And build a snow man then a family of snow men
The little things I took for granted then
Matter most to me now,
I’d sell my soul to revive those memories
And the nights of passionate love
Since she has been away I have stayed away
I see signs and she appears, as I walk toward her she disappears
Like a premonition…
Demons from the past, ghost memories, inside I am dying
But my revenge, my promise must be kept!
The lives I have saved those who have died under my blade in my hands my bride to be, showed me I shed more blood then tears and love combined!
I sacrificed what many search for and very few find…
As I leave the cemetery with no faith no hope
I remember the wise words of a family member
“One cannot escape the shadow; however the shadow will never leave you. And having the courage to face the light of day is true strength. So do so with the shadow by your side.”
My eyes open the torment is passed,
Gripping my sword
I jump over the gate, and walk into the mist of night,

And fade into the shadows…

Where my blade guides me tonite…